30 day Self harm challenge in one night!
1. How long have you been self harming? Discuss why you started.
About a year now. i started because i needed a way to get control of myself.
2. What part of your body is most affected by it?
My legs, and arms.
3. What is your motivation to recover?
I do not have one.
4. Do you consider yourself “addicted”? why or why not?
Yes i am, because i panic whenever my scars are gone or fading and i make new ones.
5. What part of self harm do you dislike the most?
i don’t “Dislike” any of it.
6. What about it do you enjoy?
The high it gave me.
7. List 10 activities that help you calm down.
I can’t think of 10…
8. What the most supportive thing anyone has said to you about self harm?
Well, no one really knows i do it, so theres nothing.
9. Have you ever taken pictures of your wounds? Discuss.
Yes, to put on tumblr, but my mum almost went through my phone so i deleted it.
10. How do you feel about your scars?
I LOVE them….
11. Strangest place (home, park, etc) you’ve ever injured yourself?
At a camp in the states….
12. Where do you keep your ‘tools’? (Your room, in a box, disposed of
them?)
A box in my room.
13. What is the biggest realization about self harm you’ve had?
I do not know…
14. Is there anyone you consider to be an inspiration in your recovery?
Demi Lovato
15. Do you visit any websites about self harm? If so, what are they?
No i don’t.
16. What advice would you give to someone about self harm?
What if your children saw those, and thought i was okay for them to do it too.
17. Do you know anyone else who injures themselves?
Yes i do.
18. Write a letter to the future (recovered) you.
I’m proud of you.
19. List 5 reasons that recovery is worth it.
~ to finally be able to say “I did it”
~ Not having to hid myself anymore
~That proud feeling
~To have people be proud of me.
~Just because.
20. What is the most vivid memory you have of self harm.
Crying at 3 am because of a message i got, and carving “FAT” into my legs.
21. Have you tried to stop in the past? What are you doing differently this
time?
Yes, and nothing.
22. Where do you feel the most calm?
At home or at camp
23. What is your favorite inspirational quote?
“Never let the fear of striking out keep you from playing the game”
24. What are some of your main triggers? Why?
Waking up in the mornings.
25. Do you know any statistics about self harm?
No i do not.
26. What is something that makes you the most happy?
Tumblr. As well as my niece <3
27. Discuss any and all progress you have made.
Non at all.. well i was two weeks free…until today.
28. What short-term goals do you have?
I do not have any.
29. Do you follow any self-harm blogs?
Yes i do
30. Post your favorite picture of yourself and write a positive message to
look back on
It’s not working right now. but i will upload one later or something
Help, I have done it again
I have been here many times before
Hurt myself again today
And, the worst part is there’s no-one else to blame
Be my friend
Hold me, wrap me up
Unfold me
I am small
I’m needy
Warm me up
And breathe me
Ouch I have lost myself again
Lost myself and I am nowhere to be found,
Yeah I think that I might break
I’ve lost myself again and I feel unsafe
Be my friend
Hold me, wrap me up
Unfold me
I am small
I’m needy
Warm me up
And breathe me
Be my friend
Hold me, wrap me up
Unfold me
I am small
I’m needy
Warm me up
And breathe me
(Source: Spotify, via sparkl3motion-deactivated201212)
My cuts are rubbing against my shirt and it hurts like a bitch, trying not to flinch infront of my mom and sister.
(Source: scars0fas0ldier)
